離開了

總於回家了, 有點不舍得
不舍得那裡的環境, 那裡的空氣, 那裡的美食, 那裡的大海
還有的是不舍得某個人
在這短短的五天里, 他的一舉一動都令我不停的留意著
看到他開心的有說有笑, 我會不知覺的笑了起來
但看到他心裡沉悶時, 我又會不知覺的跟他一樣
心裡會有種莫名其妙的感覺
這幾天里他不斷的逗我笑, 逗我跟他聊
可是我就是慢熱的人, 不怎麼的給反應他
只會默默的偷忘他, 偷偷的留意他的舉動

終於到最後一天了, 應該是開開心心的回家去
可是就是有種特別的感覺要我留下
我知道這是不可能的
在他送我們去機場的路途中, 他唱了一首歌
不知怎麼的, 眼淚在眼里滾著
費了好大的眼力希望眼淚不要流下來, 因為他會看到

半個小時到達機場, "時間過得好快!"
忠於故起勇氣的跟他合了張照
我的心從來沒試過好像那天醬, 整個心好像要掉出來, 跳的很快

是時候上機了, 看著他的背影慢慢的離開
心酸了一下, 看著我們的合照, 腦海里不停的想著那幾天的畫面

無意中聽到原來他是... 這時我真的嚇了一跳
原來是真的! 那幾天我都是靠猜的...

他還是走了

現在是11.50pm, 等下3am就要去機場了,去海南島5天4夜
應該感到開心和興奮才對, 可是不知為何一點開心都沒有
就覺得好不舍得, 可是就不知道舍不得甚麼
干嘛啊? 又不是不回來..可是心情就是有點矛盾的
可能我hormone失調吧..哈哈哈哈!

Was uploading all those past time photos among thousand of pictures into facebook and i found these..is my first studio pic that are taken in 2005 if I'm not mistaken! heheh

There's some more pic but i lazy to upload..the file size is too big so it's need time to upload
sorry for my impatient!

不敢跟你投訴 我每天心底的惶恐
不想給你電話 原是你聲線冷又凍
若我那些煩惱 施展去能為你織成半匹布
時常為念掛你 而磨蝕了體重

手中氫氣球要浮上半空 只因心頭很高
可惜飛上上空 隨時自爆使你我亦痛

若你太輕浮太想高飛 而難道我只能死心塌地
如無力獨占你 就試著放開你

微雨裡停在馬路口　輕輕一笑氣球放開手
彼此都有了自由　不必擔心失去　最灑脫是沒擁有
忘記你前路繼續走　衷心祝你暢遊 全宇宙
讓我的一切畏懼掛念浮上那雲層 極厚

一起走過城市 常怕滿街小偷將你牽走
很想裝作強者 然而自信心永遠未足夠

若你太輕浮太想高飛 而難道我只能死心塌地
如無力獨占你 就試著放開你

是我的問題嗎? 是我不夠好嗎?

話說是想念, 可是有真的那麼想念嗎?

我不知道, 嘴巴不是我的, 要說甚麼都可以

可是我為有聽的, 每次只能靠猜, 感覺好辛苦

想念一個人真的好累, 我連我自己也不清楚我在干嘛

都已經很清楚的擺明我是有感覺, 可是為何"你" 卻沒反應呢?

是我重头到尾都搞錯了嗎?

姐妹們, 我知道女子不要那麼主動

可是對不起, 我控制不了我自己

不是我很隨便, 我只是忍不住, 好想把話說清楚而已

可是把話說清楚了, 我有得到答案嗎? 沒有!

我真的做錯了嗎?

如果沒感覺

那為何要對我那麼好?

為何要問一些令人不知道要怎麼回答的問題?

為何要說一些令人開心而心煩的話?

為何要找我?

我說過了我玩不起

希望"你"能明白

我可是對愛情很認真的...

如果是對我沒感覺可以把話說清楚嗎?

永遠靠猜的會狠辛苦

My last day of intern

I wish i could go back to study when i was working. But today, i wish i could stay in my working place for long rather than study. Hmm..as what people said, fully enjoy life while you still can. yes, i agreed with that, so from now on i must learn to enjoy my life with fullest! Fullest to the top of the sky..im gonna missed my working place, missed all my colleague, missed my boss, missed the environment, and missed my working table..aha..i already get used of the environment in just 3 months, its not that long or short..these months i had learn alots of new things..although im not an IT person but since worked in the IT company i think i had learn alot from it..been go through the internet to construct all the work..sometimes it's really complicated but im still get used from it. This is the last time i post my blog in office..after that i dont think i will update my post on time as i lazy to surf on net..ahaha...

My boss farewell for me in Italiannies, The Curve. Was wondering why i offen went there!?? i've went to this laundry bar for 3 times in a month i think..if im not mistaken *wink* ..thanks for their caring, thanks for given me such lots of works to do, thanks for being scolded so that i can grow up from here, thanks for the farewell meal, thanks for the high salary, anyhow, thanks for everything! But i forgot to take picture in our lunch, im so forgetfull..*sob sob*

Boss and i

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Colleague Sweeling and i

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Three of us

当你正在忙的时候，却把手机开着，等着他/她的短信……你已经❤上他/她了

如果你喜欢和他/她两个人单独漫步……你已经❤上他/她了

当你和他/她在一起时，你会假装不注意他/她，但是当他/她离开你的视线时，你会急着寻找他/她……你已经❤上他/她了

当他/她受伤或生病时，你会关心他/她，替他/她着急……你已经❤上他/她了

当他/她和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味……你已经❤上他/她了

当你看到他/她那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑……你已经❤上他/她了

我...爱上了！

年龄是那么的重要吗？
才那几年吧了嘛。。。
之前的顾虑再加上这些不被看好的眼光
自己也变得没什么信心了
有feel那又怎样？
我真的感觉不到那种安全感
好没有信心的一段情
是我太冲动吗？
答应过自己不要那么冲动的
可是还是办不到

忠于鼓起勇气了
说出来后舒服很多
可是我有得到答案吗？
我不知道
起码我知道
他也和我一样拥有同样的感觉！

我的心情很糟很糟!
好想把整個人埋進個洞里
甚麼也不去做, 不去想

有一種特別的感覺

見面的次數多了, 感覺也一天比一天多

很怕自己投入太深, 深到無法自拔

跟往常一樣, 晚上出來喝茶

今晚有點特別, 沒心理準備的隨變換了件衣就出門

還以為去附近喝下茶

怎知突然說去看半夜場

那時1am, 戲院都關了

就只好再找其他地方喝

突然他建議去Santuary, 可是很多人

都滿了, 就只好去 The Apartment 喝

聊了很久..剛剛才回到家

現在就快4am了, 還是很精神, 睡不著

怎麼辦? 在想著某些事情咧...

如果他看到這段我就完蛋啦......

以前我忠是托泥帶水, 甚麼都不是很想說清楚

突然有種很強烈的感覺很想把心理的話全部說出來

我可以嗎? 我就是沒勇氣

沒勇氣的人永遠都是失敗者

我就是那個失敗者!

Last night went for movie with one of my friend, we watched X-men..well..i will rate this movie 8/10..it's consider high. I rated this cause this movie was not in my expectation. Everyone asked and told me to watch this as it's a very nice..but i don't really agreed as it's not real in the world. I admit that am a realistic person. I don't believe all these such things..will there a superman rescue me while im stuck in an accident? Will there a spiderman bring me up to a building? Will there a X-man fight for me? hmm..the answer is NO! hahahhh

Before that we went for shopping of course..shop till i drop

This is a must watch movie as it's hit 1 billion in just two weeks..how amazing it is! It's became world No.1 movie!!!

I love this scene the most..Hugh Jackman fighting with his brother after his lover killed by his violence brother..although this scene is a fighting scene..but it's touch my heart!
He thought he is the Wolverine and his lover is the moon..he wanted to protect her but he lost her. Along the way he take revenge for her lover. He is violence but yet emotional
(They're not an animal, they're mutants)
It's just like a normal human with extraordinary power

Another new realease movie..my friend asked me to watch with her..hmm..i was wondering??! Is this movie nice? er..dont know la..not willing to watch larrrr..once again.im a realistic person..hehhe

突然很想post狗狗的照片

她雖然很坏蛋, 可是有時還蠻可愛

原本恨到要打她

可是看到她那無辜的表情

就舍不得打她

這就是我的笨狗啦~...

看到嗎?她在笑 ( 這可是沒經過 Photoshop edit 的哦!)

哈哈! 來張合照才可以吃...

無無聊聊的自拍起來, 沒化妝的我看起來很 pure

感恩

雙親節就快到了, 是報答父母的時候了

這幾天都在想, 父母從國外回來我要帶他們去那裡吃呢?

一點頭緒也沒有...

好擔心他們, 豬流感越來越嚴重了

雖然他們報平安的說沒事

可是我還是很擔心

聽說不是吃豬肉就會被感染, 感染是會從空氣中传然的!

希望他們平平安安的回來

單身萬歲!

告別了戀愛, 如今單身的我感到很輕鬆

以前總是要陪另一半而忽略了家人

平常的我已經沒甚麼時間跟家人相處

當要陪另一半的時候跟不用多說

往往失去了跟家人共同快樂的時光

如今的我, 跟家人相處的時間多的很

這時我忠於知道家人的重要性

真的對我們好的人此終都是父母

雖然單身, 可是我還是活得很快樂

甚至過的比戀愛的時候快樂

沒有了那種所謂的被人"管" , 感覺真的輕鬆了不少

好像一只小鳥可以自由的飛

要飛去那裡就飛那裡

根本不用多想

有時我真的很不明白

為甚麼有些人可以為了另一半而失去自我?

忠是唉声嘆氣的說: 他/她為甚麼要離開我?!

難道失去了另一半就不能活下去了嗎?

甚至連生命也不要

我說啊: 這種人根本就是笨!

可能別人會覺得我根本不懂愛情是蝦咪!

可是我可以很大聲的說 : 我愛惜我自己多過去愛別人

起碼我珍惜我的生命

友情還是愛情

周末就這樣的結束了, 這兩天都一直做家務, 沒甚麼時間享受到
明天就要作工了, 好不想去哦! 好想拿假睡個夠
他突然約我去看電影, 原本以為晚上可以去的, 可是他突然加班
說甚麼晚上一放工就會給我打電,
怎麼我會儍傻的在等呢? 等著他的來電, 等啊等啊....
都快2am了, 可是就是睡不著
友情和愛情我分不清了

Labour Day

Labour Day! At first sista shuen and I planned to "wet" the whole night cause she stayed overnight at my house and parents are not in home, we wanted to go for sing k but was full house, i wanted to go for movie but she seems so tired so we headed back home after dinner. Guess what?! i went to Italianise again! This month im really spent alot..we both have a great moment in our dinner..we talked and laughed non stop..yes! is non-stop.

Went home at 12am, after bath we both pillow talked till 2am..it's really tired but FUN..we woke up at 11am something the next day..we went to subang neway after we makeover. Dont know is it im getting older?! These days I can't play the whole day without any rest..we sing until 6pm then i headed back home..im so sleepy and tired..my eyebags are dropping to the floor and my legs are going to be like "cacat" while im driving..i know it's dangerous, but how? what can i do? no one can fetch me back home.

I thought i can sleep early last night but can't! Got a msg and called from my friend at 1.30am..he told me he can't sleep. Arg...he woke me up from my dreamz...we chat till 3am, so i slept at 3am! Wake up in the early morning today, my crazy + stupid dog messy the living room..bloody hell! Means i have to clean it. i have to clean her SHIT! swept and mop the whole house..poor me! Im like an indonesian mad, parents in London for about 2 weeks, means i have to clean everything included wash plate, swept and mop floor, wash cloths, take care of my stupid dog and water all the plants..my mom's garden! How nice is't if mom is here..I'm worried my parents, Europe is having swine flu..i sms daddy, luckily everything is fine over there..they didnt take swine..miss them alot!

-重逢-

相隔 8 年再重逢, 感覺好像才見面不久...回想起跟他相識的那段時間真的很特別,很開心! 真的沒想過這段友情可以維持這麼久, 中間那段時間發生了很多事, 他有他的世界, 我有我的世界, 沒想到隔了那麼多年, 我們還把對方放在心里. 那晚跟他去喝茶, 還是有很多話題聊不完, 說說笑笑, 時間過的很快! 以前都沒那種感覺, 如今不知為何卻有著那種感覺, 每天都在期待這一些事情的發生! 有的時候會有一種想令我'飛'的感覺! 糟糕了, 我是不是?...........